So you know how a song can totally take you back in time to a certain place or person/event, well I heard an old Billy Joel song this morning and it immediately took me back to my high school cafeteria days, who I always sat with and the song I played on the juke box. What suddenly stood out in my mind like a flash of lightning was that all through high school, every day for lunch, I would buy a chocolate milk and two orders of french fries. Seriously, that’s what I ate for lunch every day. Very few people called me out on it, and if they did, I just told them to shove off. Amazing how early disordered eating habits start.
I was a normal weight in high school, but as soon as I graduated – the weight started piling on. I did not go to college; I got a job, got my own place, I just ate out constantly and never cooked. I was not remotely concerned about nutrition; and whatever exercise I got as a teenager quickly faded as I threw myself into my career. My mom died right when I was graduating high school, so I’m sure that played a factor as well.
I’m tempted to say something like ‘why didn’t anybody stop me, or shake me up, or slap me?’ … but in all honesty, if they had, I probably would not have listened. Not sure where I’m going with all this or what my point is exactly … except that you can’t change people, and you can’t even HELP them change until they’re ready.
My moment of Truth came on a playground when my 4 year old daughter asked me to sit in a swing, and I could not, because my 320 pound butt did not fit. Sometimes your moment of Truth is small and almost subtle, but its yours – and sometimes it’s a wake-up call at the dr. when you get a bad report. And sometimes, it takes us SEVERAL moments of truth … and that’s okay too.
And with that, I hope you sleep well tonight, happy and at peace with the choices you made throughout the day. AND if not – well tomorrow is a new day!
Now, I’ll leave you with my mantra …